Andrea Londo's Mexican-American Cinderella Story: A Work In Progess

Brock Goldberg:   0:06
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Andrea Londo :   3:08
Hello? Uh, are you guys going? It's good.

Brock Goldberg:   3:17
Are you ready?

Andrea Londo :   3:18
I think so.

Brock Goldberg:   3:19
I don't know. Maybe just a little bit. You know, um, I'm really excited to have you on. I, uh I remember reaching out to your list of it, reached out to you and like her and I were talking, and, um, I wasn't sure if you even going to say yes. And you've just been really cool to come on. And I do appreciate it.

Andrea Londo :   3:37
Yeah, of course. I was going to say yes. And I mean, this whole process

Brock Goldberg:   3:42
for me, like, even like today launching on all the shows like I haven't expected, you know, this many people to be so awesome and just kind of come on a podcast and talk shit. You know, that's kind of what it's all about.

Andrea Londo :   3:53
But it's called back to your story, and I think I think that's really cool. Like when you told me the premise of what it was. I was like, That's a super dope opportunity. Thio. Have a conversation with somebody that's about getting back to exactly who you are, regardless of what you

Brock Goldberg:   4:08
do or like Saloon, where you're standing and whatever 100%. Because at the end of the day, I'm not come from the thought philosophy that we all have a story. It doesn't matter who you are, where you've been or what you're doing. Um, in your life, we we all have a story to share, and everyone can take little bits and pieces from that that are listening to that story and my whole life. I've always kind of just wanted to hear people's stories. I don't know. I think that humanity is a whole, you know, comes together better when we have open conversation and open dialogue. Um, you know, for the people listening for the very first time. I'd like to. I don't normally do this. Well, I guess I normally do. I'd like for you to introduce yourself kind of say who you are, what your name is. And Ah, your sign. No, not really. I'm just bullshitting.

Andrea Londo :   4:58
Hi. Andri. Alando. Scorpio.

Brock Goldberg:   5:00
There we go.

Andrea Londo :   5:01
Way also. Wait. Sorry. I said, Andrea, it's usually Andrea. Andre, I have this weird thing. When I say my name like my full name, I I always do that. I always say, Andrea and I'm not entirely sure what It's very strangely like Hell. What's house of pronouncing on my Andre and then, like, okay. And if bombing at an audition, though, you can use late, and I'm like, Yeah, so it's Andre. Right? Yet? Okay, Slate, Andrea Lando. And if they're, like, so weird and it's just like this weird thing, I Yeah, I don't know, because

Brock Goldberg:   5:35
when you said that I'm like, Wait a minute. Is her name Andrea? Andrea, I'm like

Andrea Londo :   5:37
I don't even know

Brock Goldberg:   5:38
what they call her. It's Andrea. I was like, she can you answer the question, please? I know you know. So it's so it's Andre. Yeah. So I've said it correctly the entire time. Yes, I feel comfortable in myself to proceed to the next question. Great. So, Andrea, um, where are you from? I mean, I know that we're here in Los Angeles, California but where does this story of Andreas Stark?

Andrea Londo :   6:03
So it starts in San Diego, California, because that's where I was born, but it technically doesn't really start their I grew up in Tijuana, which is across the border from San Diego. A lot of people know it as Tijuana or Tijuana. Tijuana? Yeah. Every time I do that, when I'm just like the Qana people everywhere, like Tijuana, TJ across the border. Oh, look, I know what that is exactly. So I grew up there, and that's really home at like people. When they ask me where you're from, I tend to say, Oh, TJ's any ago, but it's really t J. I just grew up going to school in San Diego, but Tijuana is home. That's where my family is. And that's where you

Brock Goldberg:   6:50
were conceived. The whole the whole nine. San Diego, Tijuana, Tijuana, TJ, all of the above. How is that growing up is a kid, I mean, because you went to both sides. I mean, you go from San Diego to TJ TJ to San Diego. What was that like?

Andrea Londo :   7:07
Yeah. So I started doing that at a very, very young age. I think I did school in Mexico for about a year, and it was like something ridiculous, like preschool, you know, nothing really substantial. And then I started going to school in San Diego from the time of preschool. And really, the whole thought process behind it, as far as my parents are concerned, was learning to speak English. That was the priority. Like make them bilingual in a way where if you learn English in Mexico, it's not the same. So that was the entire thing about it. Um, in both my brother and my sister did it.

Brock Goldberg:   7:47
So why lie? I mean, grown growing up, you know, Mexico, America. Why was it so important for your parents to be Ah Tau? Have you guys be bilingual?

Andrea Londo :   8:01
You know, that's a very interesting question. I think it was more important for my mom. Um, my I mean, obviously my dad was supportive, of course, because, you know, I'm very grateful for my dad. He's the one that worked hard for us to be able to to all of us, to be bilingual and for me to be here and all of that. But I think my mom was the first. So my brother, my sister and my brother and me are the three oldest grandchildren on my dad's side. And I think my mom was the first to sort of have kids and be like, my kids are gonna be American and my kids are gonna be bilingual. And I've actually never had that conversation with her about, like why? I just know that it was very in green in her mind, like That's a better opportunity for you in your life, and that's what you're gonna do and what you're gonna be in. Um, and I've I think now in my life, I've really, really, really value it. Um, that's and I'm extremely thankful for it, you know,

Brock Goldberg:   9:07
That's absolutely you know, it just kind of sitting here talking to you, that for me, that blows my mind because it's like, you know where you're from, and so you should be 110% you know, happy with that. And as a parent, um, I mean I understand, You know, I guess No, no, I don't understand. You know, I can say that. I understand. But I don't really understand. Um, you know me growing up in Los Angeles, California, I've never My parents were like, you have to learn Spanish, right? That that was that was never the thing. Um, and I commend your mother, but at the same time, it makes me sad. All right. It does. It really makes me sigh because, um, your mom wanted a better life for you. And at the end of the day, we should all have a better life. And so your parents now do they still they still live in Mexico?

Andrea Londo :   9:55
They do.

Brock Goldberg:   9:56
And you, your parents lived in Mexico at that same time? Or do they live in San Diego?

Andrea Londo :   10:01
No. Nobody in my family has ever lived in San Diego except me. And I said, Well, my sister did live in San Diego for a bit, But what I mean by lived in San Diego has lived in the U. S. In general. So I'm the 1st 1 that, like, really moved to the US and really stayed. Yeah, yeah,

Brock Goldberg:   10:18
on. And they all um, Where's your kind of Where's your family? Spread out now.

Andrea Londo :   10:23
Um, Tijuana. Ah, the beak. Married, which is where my mom is from. So my mom is actually from Culiacan. My dad is from Tijuana, so they met in Tijuana. But my mom is from Kubla Khan. So I have a lot of roots there, Which is Sinaloa.

Brock Goldberg:   10:43
Okay, Yeah, the only reason that I know seeing Eloise from the cartel. Right. Um and, uh, What was I mean,

Andrea Londo :   10:55
it was destined that I was gonna be

Brock Goldberg:   10:56
on some cardio? Probably. Definitely eso. What was that, like growing up for you? Because you had both sides. You know, you had the the American side that you are obviously living in now. And then you have the the Mexican side. Was that hard for you as a young kid? Toe kind of look at like who I am is an individual.

Andrea Londo :   11:24
Yes, it was very hard. And it was hard because how it's it's very, you know, as a kid, you're very hyper aware of what you're missing out on. I think actually, that shapes you a lot. Growing up. You know what you see other people have and what you don't sadly right. But that's how like we work as human beings. And I think I would see a lot of kids have a very Mexican life, which was very social, a lot of friends, and I never really had that. And I think a lot of it had to do. I mean, I had my small group of friends from school, but I definitely saw a very big difference with, like me and my cousins and the life that they lead, and like what going to school in Mexico would have been like. And I think there was a little bit of a sense of missing out and there's no, but it's not just that right. It's also the fact that in school I was one of the Mexican girls. Understandably so. You know, like you come from another country every day to go to school in the same place of somebody that lives around the corner from the school. And, um, you speak Spanish during recess and you have other friends that speak Spanish, says. And um, you go back home and it's just like I'm going back to Mexico. But I see you guys tomorrow and So you're a Mexican person in school, and but you're American, and I don't think I fully grasp that. As a young kid, I didn't think there. I didn't feel necessarily in my power off, like I'm American, too, Like I knew I was. But I didn't really feel it because it was so obvious that I was also very Mexican. And then in Mexico, I wasn't the type of Mexican that other Mexicans were because I went to school in San Diego. So I was this and not. I mean, there's other people like me, Of course. Um, that's why I call it like being a border child because there's this strange psychology of being both at the same time, but never fully. Um, at times I felt growing up, never fully valid as one. You know

Brock Goldberg:   13:27
that it

Andrea Londo :   13:28
sounds way deeper,

Brock Goldberg:   13:29
right? No, no, no, no, no. It's true because I don't know these types of things, especially as we're Children growing up. It shapes who we are. It shapes who we are as an individual and being ah from both sides and not feeling fully accepted. Neither leader and either that blows my frickin mind and especially as a kid because we are so hyper aware of everything in high. I was hypersensitive is shit as a kid. And I can only imagine you know, what you had to go through not feeling fully accepted on both sides. Um, how did the kids treat you? Because I mean, like you said, you know, you come to it, you're in, you're in America going to school, and you you know, you're speaking Spanish at recess and go back home. And you're kind of the American kid. Like, What the fuck is that like?

Andrea Londo :   14:25
Yeah. I mean, as far as how other people treated me, I think there was other kids doing the same thing where I was going to school. So I didn't really feel like, Oh, I'm getting bullied for being the Mexican girl, you know? I mean, there was none of that. Um, and I was also very, very, very, very young. I did a lot of sports like I did tennis competitively. I did swimming competitively of the gymnastics competitively, like competitively competitive said that that I did a lot of sports. So I think, um, I'm not I lately for some reason, I've been trying to really figure out what it was about me that really took me into, um, being so obsessive about things and like fully launching into something because I did that ever since I was really young, especially with sports. That was the first time, like I did gymnastics four hours after school so I'd get home from school, and then my mom would have, like, food ready, and I'd eat, like, just, like, eat really fast. And then I just go to gymnastics for about four hours. So I had this other life outside of school. That was my priority. Okay, so I didn't really have this notion of like am I being accepted socially Because I had no space for that. I mean, I did gymnastics until I was 15 so people would be like, Hey, we're going to the movie theater after school. Do you want to come? And I'd be like, No drastic practice, not interested. So I didn't really

Brock Goldberg:   16:09
respect. I get it. You

Andrea Londo :   16:10
know, I don't know why I was like that. It wasn't I wasn't trying to be like dedicated. I just genuinely a genuinely was like What if it's the day that I do the double like, you know, it's true. Yeah, and that's what I was like. So I never felt I think I just felt it. I think as a teenager, once I stopped being a Jim NIST, I'd get two parties saying, like a party in T. J. Where you know, everybody knows each other and there's this big groups of girlfriends and whatever and I'd get there with, like, one girlfriend, because that was the one girlfriend I had kept since I was eight. Um, and then, you know, you're in that age where, like if a boy likes you or something, it's like, So who are your friends? And then that would always make me feel so uncomfortable because I didn't living this like life, very kind of nomadic, not established anywhere. And, um, I did feel very insecure in that once I got to being a teenager and realizing like, oh, okay, wait, I don't have these foundations that everybody else has. I'm not that kid. I'm not that girl like that was difficult, but I But I think it's it absolutely has to do with being a border kid because I didn't grow up going to the same school. And, you know, um, having all these, like friends readily available to me that, you know, the entire classroom didn't live nearby. Design makes sense. Yeah, it's

Brock Goldberg:   17:37
a trip. It's a trip. Yeah, I couldn't imagine that, you know, for for me, as a kid growing up, I knew I went to school. I came home, my parents were there on, and that was that. And then as I got older, I all I cared about was going skateboarding, getting stoned like that. That was literally yeah. Um, and then that was my life. I never had to think about, um, life at it. Just kind of a deeper level, Especially as a kid. We can't Attn least for me. I couldn't conceptualize I couldn't wrap my head around, um, anything else like anything else except my life. But as I'm an adult, you know, I I look it. I look at the world as a whole. Right? And there are so many kids out there that are going through what you went through. And and and even worse, it's not to take what you've done but like or your life. But make it any less But it's It's just the life that we live on for for you. How long did this last? Where you going? Back and forth till you know, you graduated high school. Yeah. So,

Andrea Londo :   18:39
free school to high school.

Brock Goldberg:   18:41
Holy shit.

Andrea Londo :   18:41
I mean, the way of getting there changed. We mean, there was a lot of carpooling than there was exclusively driving with one friend who, like, got a license when she was 16. And then it was me driving myself half of junior year and then probably all of senior year to school. I think if I remember correctly because there was a there was a lot of me driving myself to school towards the end. Um, so the process of getting their shifted but it lasted my entire life up until, like, okay, either go to college or, you know, do whatever.

Brock Goldberg:   19:15
Definitely. And have you talked to your siblings about this and what they felt that they go through some of the same things?

Andrea Londo :   19:23
I don't know. Actually, I've never had this conversation. My I've had this some type of conversation around this with my sister. Um, but if it revolves more around the fact that we went to an all girls high school. You did? Yeah. Okay, so we're talking about we talked more about, like, the experience of that, Um, and with my brother, my brother was kind of like a wild child in the sense that he I mean, he got expelled when he was in sixth grade. I hope he doesn't mind me saying that.

Brock Goldberg:   19:54
It sounds like me times I got kicked out of every kid.

Andrea Londo :   19:59
Yeah, well, I mean, I don't know he's a bad kid, but I think he's a very smart human being, but I think he's always been What's the word like? I think I think he could see through the bullshit of, like, why am I in some class? Listen to this history thing like that doesn't let interest me at all. I think he was very much just into what he was interested. So he started going to school in Mexico, Um, after sixth grade, because my parents were like, Okay, we're done with you. You know, I'm not doing this with you. Exactly. So he's So he So he went to school in Mexico. So his experiences completely different, which is super interesting to me because Mmm, I It's so it's so funny because you said, you know, like that experience must have shaped you like the way you went to school in all of that. And I think what shape me even more. So is that After that, I really moved to the US and was like, Okay, let me try this. Here, let me do something right in this part of the planet, which is so close to home, but so different. And my brother is a perfect example of how, like different, um, your life pans out if that's not your life. You know, even if you live in a city that's right next to the U. S. It's completely different if you really live your life in Mexico versus of you decide to not do that. Yeah, you know,

Brock Goldberg:   21:21
it's so weird because we're so close, so close. But it's It's like as you drive, you know, through San Diego and then get closer and closer to the border. I mean, you can start to tell the difference, right? And then you get across the border and it's it's so different Immediately, immediately, and it just blows my fucking mind because I went to Rosarito Beach. Listen, I want to be Rosarito Beach for Fourth of July and we drove down there and it's it's just so insane to me because we're so close. But we're so far apart. Yes. And, you know, I just kind of keep on thinking about your parents and the life that they grew up in and to really see that, okay, We gotta do everything that we can to try to give them a better life. What did that mean to you? I mean, looking back now, as as an adult, what does that mean to you

Andrea Londo :   22:18
right now? It means everything to me. I am so grateful for the education that I received. And it's also depending on the person that you are right. But I was always vary into school. I enjoyed it. I enjoyed learning. It made me excited and made me excited to learn any scale to listen to what somebody had to say. Like, um, to this day, I think about going back to school because I miss it, you know, I mean, like that mental stimulation off and and hearing somebody else's opinion that's so well formed and so like I love it, but I I think you know my dad. I think there's this thing when I when I talk about who I am and it's so funny. I'm doing this forecast right now because I recently posted something on Instagram talking about like I'm privileged that I come from, ah, socioeconomic background where my parents could afford to send me to school in San Diego. Because you can't I didn't go to public school because that's illegal. You need to goto pub. You need to go to a private school so that you pay tuition because public schools, roulette pay taxes, which are not my parents because they live in Mexico. So So I think my dad made a lot of sacrifices for us to have that education, and I don't think you can fully grasp that until you're older and you realize the amount of money it took And like being a studious kid, I always had scholarships, and I always you know what I mean, But and I mean, that's whatever I mean that that entire burden of like especially, you know, my sister's entire tuition mine my brother's you know, because I mean, he also they also pay for tuition in Mexico. And and I think that sacrifice has really made me aware of how important an education is because I think sometimes we're just like there's this mentality nowadays that really irks me, which is like, which is just this thing about school, like you just get in debt and you just, you know, and I and Night and I I understand is your laugh. Is that what you say?

Brock Goldberg:   24:20
Uh, both sides. I see both sides. I'll explain why,

Andrea Londo :   24:23
yes, Because it's ridiculous what it costs your ridiculous. But see, But this is my devil's advocate aspect of that is that I think that you cannot come out. Okay, So people say, Oh, what what do you get at the end of it? A piece of paper know so much more than that. I mean, the reality is you're never in a setting in real life, very hardly any way where you're in a setting where, like other 20 people and everybody is from somewhere completely different than you, and the topic is wine. The topic is Buddha. The topic is for whatever you want it to be, and you could have people that think the same way. But then you listen to why they think that same way, and it's completely different than you. And I don't think you come out of four years of that of that awareness us the same person. You come out a completely different person way more open minded way, more aware of what it takes to one like form a human being and to be respectful of what people think and why they're different. Because, like where you're raised in, all of these different things really impact how you think and what you do and how you go about like living your fuckin line.

Brock Goldberg:   25:36
It's so true

Andrea Londo :   25:37
and it's so powerful. I get so passionate about this because I think it's so lost now. I think now we're so because you don't need an education all the time to be successful. I think it gets lost. That, like it actually is something that is super important. And it's it could be such a beautiful, life changing experience to be around such different mindset.

Brock Goldberg:   26:00
It's It's so true, You know, I see both sides of the argument on for me. What it comes down to is the experience what you're talking about because you go through school high school, right? And then for people that just say fuck college and try to go out into the real world, Well, the real world hits man like there's no death. It's fucking crazy, right? But for the people that do go to school, you have this 2 to 4 year time in your life where you can still be in a melting pot of individuals, be on your own, go through this experience, but still fuck up and not have the major repercussions that you would have if you were in the real world. Right? And so you it does shape the individual 110%. I agree with you. You, um and and many other people that have been on this podcast are really starting to shape my understanding because I was from the thought philosophy, like no, fuck that. I turned out fine. I didn't go to college. I I personally dropped out of high school. I took my g e d. But I struggled a lot, and I did not personally start to find myself until my later twenties. And so, you know, I did understand For the longest time. It's like Det. Det Det. That that that but and you know, unless you know you're racking up 152 $100,000 debt, that's a different story, right? But for the people that rack up 2030 $40,000 for that for that experience for those four years, it's a definitely worth it if you're open to it.

Andrea Londo :   27:36
Which, by the way, I just want to say something. It sounds like a lot of money, but you paid up for your car. You literally sign your life away. If you get a new car, you're like I'm gonna pay this in three or four years. Five years? But yeah, but that cars cost you 36 35 37 45 50 depending on what you get or fuck. Even more than that, it's really bhangra bootie. But you know what I mean? Like it's really it is expensive because it's it's an education. So it's It's a business now, so it's expensive. But in reality in, you know, in relation to what other things cost in life, it's it's it's also not this undoable thing, and I just I also want to say I didn't actually graduate respect. So, like, I feel like I'm sure

Brock Goldberg:   28:22
you don't graduate high school call. You got college, okay? I was like,

Andrea Londo :   28:25
I got in a cell. That's all right. Transferred. And then life happened.

Brock Goldberg:   28:31
Mold that happens, right? That that happens. You know, um, you know, for you kind of hearing your story and and and And you know where you're at in your life today? Um, I but I do. I can't just dial it back. We're going to your parents, right? On everything that you've been afforded, right, that the opportunities. Although, um, it's had its ups and downs, like everything in life. Right? What about your pants? Where How did your parents growing up in Mexico figure out a way that their kids are more important than anything else? And we want to give them the opportunity to have a different life than awesome? What was that?

Andrea Londo :   29:16
The culture being Mexican, I think there's a lot of pride in your family. Six like being successful. And I think my parents were just trying to be smart about, um they could have a career in the U. S. I think that's what it was, and it's not, You know, I think sometimes, Um, there's this thing where, like if you speak highly of opportunities in the U. S, you're putting down Mexico and the opportunities afforded there and absolutely not. I think there are opportunities there, but it's a very different system overall. And I think in general, as faras, you know, minimum wage, just just there. Simply there. You could have a very decent life if you had a minimum wage job that paid slightly above minimum wage Bray like, say, even a dollar or 50 cents, whatever it might be. Exactly. Yeah. And, um, you live within your means and then you start growing wherever it is that you're working like there is some future for you, there is hope. I think that hope doesn't exist in Mexico. I think in Mexico, you know, if you work at a Starbucks, there's no like, I'll gonna I'm gonna become manager here, and every year I'm gonna have this, like, raise or or at some point, you know, maybe I could go into corporate. I don't even know that happens at Starbucks. But I know it happened at like I worked at Zara, and I know that that's a thing. It's a thing. You could start us a sales associate. You could grow into whatever and whatever and whatever. And then eventually we a part of corporate in court So you could have a career even if you started working at this retail store, Of course. And I think that is not necessarily the case in a lot of the work opportunities in Mexico. So that's mostly I think, the vision that my parents had, they were like Okay, well, they they have the potential to grow even at this level of just being a U. S. Citizen affords you that opportunity, which I think is what is lost. Sometimes the value of it white such a valuable thing to so many people, I think. I think that's why

Brock Goldberg:   31:23
you know, I you know, a lot of times I hear like because obviously your parents came here and your your mother had you here, which then made you an American citizen and sure, people that that I listened to it. Some people like Well, fuck that Like that's not cool, right? No. I find that amazing because if I had a kid, I would do anything in my power to give them a better life. And so for the individual that saying, Oh, that's not cool. They're from Mexico. No, fuck that. You just think about yourself is apparent. Would you do anything in the world to give them a better life? If the answer is yes, well, then you would do the same exact thing, then there's no well, your dumb ass. I'm sorry.

Andrea Londo :   32:00
Well, my parents the thing is it's so interesting because I think anybody that hears any type of the border situation they're like, Oh, people without documents. No, my parents have a visa. Like when they when they visit me in in L. A. They have to have a permit. Like you need a permit as a Mexican citizen to be like, Hey, I'm gonna visit my daughter in L. A. And I'm gonna be and you get a permit for a couple months, and it's like everything is very legal. So, like theirs, you know, if it's somebody is anybody that's seen to this that has an issue with the fact that I'm a U. S citizen just because my parents fucking wanted me to be. Don't understand that. Like you can do that just as much as you could. Probably. I mean, I'm not gonna go ahead and name a place, but I'm sure that there's somewhere in Europe, for example, that you could do that. Or you could go somewhere in Africa and, like, have your child there and just be like, Well, all of a sudden my kid is you know what I mean. So it's It's wherever you you choose to do things. And my parents did it right? Like I don't know anybody anything. I I'm I'm rightfully a U S citizen, and I'll get a chuckle. It

Brock Goldberg:   33:01
No, no, straight up. Straight up. You know, I was watching this on. What is it, the day after tomorrow? World never ends. I don't remember what the name of the movie is, right, But it's But there's this one scene where there's the world is ending, right, and there's climate change and all this shit, right? And all of the Americans were trying to get into Mexico, right? Well, it's making me think. Right, Well, climate change is a real fucking being right, and as you know, maybe not in our lifetime, but definitely in the lifetime down the future. If this doesn't get solved, there's gonna come a time word the Americans were going to try to get into Mexico and farther and farther and farther, right, because of climate change. And it's warmer, warmer. Um, so So that being said, it's like, I don't know, we just have to figure out a better way. And there are people that might listen to this and think the way that they want to think this blows my mind. Right, Because we're all humans. Literally. That's what we are. And if we can't come together as one and then I don't know what that's gonna happen. Yeah. So for you, you went to high school. What was that point? Because I'm gonna bring back in. What was that point for you that All right, I'm ready. I'm gonna move to America, like, fully gonna do it.

Andrea Londo :   34:16
Oh, man. I think so. I mentioned how I was like, um, very studious, but I was very I think I was very kind of obnoxious and And what? I thought I was capable of in a good way, I guess, because if you never think that you can achieve anything. You probably won't. Um but I thought I was going to go to college right after high school. That was my plan, because that's what people do. And that's what's the logical next step for sure. And I applied to some schools that were like my dream schools and whatnot, and all of a sudden it's like I have 4.1 to p ay. I'm in the top 10% of my class and I don't get into any of the schools that I wanted to get into. Exactly. And it was, I remember that was the first, like, you know, when people say I was at rock bottom, that was the first rock bottom of my life, like really, really being in a place where it's like, Sorry, you're not special enough to go to our school. But we wish you look and and I was just kind of like what the fuck like this doesn't happen to me. Why is this happening? Tiu like it made no sense. I was like I did everything right. It's like and I was extremely devastated, and I have My plan had always been I'm gonna go to college. I'm gonna do, like, theater in college. And while I get like a normal bachelors, which is like Plan B, you know, I'm safe. I'm gonna go into acting after that. Would like my safety belt, right? Like like, and it just didn't happen that way. And I remember at the time I had my first boyfriend who was going to go to my dream school. Oh, uh, yeah. And, um, I was I was That's another story. But I was I was kind of really bitter that he you know what I mean? Because I think in my mind I was like, I'm smarter than him. And then, like, it's not fair that he's very smart and very capable and deserves everything that's ever happened to him. But, um, I was in this place and I remember he was like I told him, like I wanted. I remember I was crying and he was the only person that I obviously right with your boyfriend of the tanks. The only person that I kind of let around me and, um he was like, Well, what do you want to do? Like and I was like Well, I want to be an actress. And he was like, Well, then do that. And I remember I was just crying like who? Like you really? Like, who does like? And he was like, I'm gonna tell you what We're gonna lie, and we're going to say we're going to do something in San Diego and we're going to drive up to L. A. And we're just going to see L. A. Like L. A is not that scary. And I think when I think back to that experience, um, I'm really grateful that I had at the time a boyfriend that was so like, um, you know what I mean? Like, you're gonna be okay, and and I think you're bad ass, and I think that, like, you're still worth so much regardless of like these schools. Yeah, he was a good, good cheerleader. Exactly, very good cheerleader. And we did that. And I think it just it sort of made it didn't make any thing that I was going through less scary, but at least I'd been in l. A. And it was funny because we went to a like we went to the grove and, um we went to Barnes and Noble because you were really nerdy. Way went to the Starbucks, and he was one of those people that could just talk to people. And he started talking to the guy that, like, was at the register. And, um, before you know it, I had a job. What exactly? So I s So when I'm so when I moved to allay a couple months after that, um, I went to that Starbucks at the top of the Barnes and Noble at the Grove, and I started working there like I had a job immediately. So I had, like, a means of some type of financial. Something's right. Foot hold. Yeah. So the whole thing happened like that. I failed miserably at getting into college, and then, um, I sort of was like, I guess I want to be an actress. And that story is longer because I did like I was here for four months, and then I was like getting fat, exposing my feelings. That was crying. And I was just, like, over it. And, um, I moved back to Mexico for a little bit broke up, and it was just like this weird time in my life where I was young and I was sort of, like, just unhappy and then all of that. And I was happy because But then I think after a couple of months, I realized you're happy because this is familiar. And I think I I think I remember having a day where I was just like, Okay, you're happy? Yes, but this is the rest of your life. With this happiness, this level of happiness, this is the rest of your life. Like if you decide this, that's cool. But I had always wanted to leave home and to try something to Blake. I always, always had this feeling of like you can do so much. And how old were you at this point? Like 18. Hey. Wow. Are for you.

Brock Goldberg:   39:35
For good. For you. I definitely never thought about these things are

Andrea Londo :   39:38
like, 19. I get Betsy. I never belonged that room, so I think I I never um When you were asking this earlier about like, how does being a border tile like affect how you viewed life? I think I never fully felt like I belong here. And I think there is this, like the weird fantasy I think everybody has about college, where it's like you can go somewhere new nose, you

Brock Goldberg:   40:04
course absolutely s.

Andrea Londo :   40:10
Oh, really? Because I think you're somebody with your family because I've always thought this. I'm like there's over like, I think my even, just not just my family. I just think like hometown in general, like those people that known you since you were, you know, friggin nine or eight or whatever. And it's like there's this. There's always this version of who you are that is just, like just fits with the narrative of who they think you are, And then there's what you really are and you discover that a lot when you live by yourself. And I, you know, I started living by myself when I was 19 of really living by myself, and I was like, I I to this day I think back out what everything I did. And I'm like, Why were you so stupid? Like Nothing. Nothing went back. Nothing went wrong, but I looked up a room. I I checked rooms on craigslist. I went to some couple like a couple sketchy craigslist like Come check out my room I'm renting out my sofa. I went to those places. Yeah, like I remember. Yeah. No, it was true. I remember at one place I was like, that guy was weird, like, there's no way I'm going to stay on. And then I found this Filipino family that was renting out a room. They saw me and they were like, You look, how old are you? Because I've always flip young and I think when you're 19 I probably to them I probably looked like fucking 13 years old 12 exactly like they were like and I was like, I was I mean, I didn't have I didn't have money. So it was like, I have half the rent right now, but I have a job. I swear to you, I have a job and I had got a job at Zara when I moved back. I just printed out a bunch of headshots and, like, not headshots resume something. They're not superficial at all. No, no, no. I was sending out resumes, and I I remember. They called me and I know I remember everywhere I went. I was like, Can I speak to the manager? And he said to the manager because I don't know exactly, because that's what they want to see. So, by the way, if you're looking for a retail job, just be like, Can I speak to Manager? It's so true. But you that so I So I So I did that. And, um, Zara's at the work begin at the Grove. It's like I can't escape the grove. Um and then I I worked there, but I had a job, like, two days after moving to a lake is all I did was, like hand out resumes because I was like, I need to first have a job. I need money to

Brock Goldberg:   42:40
hold the whole the whole This is that point. Where were you with the boyfriend or, you know, you broken

Andrea Londo :   42:45
on it.

Brock Goldberg:   42:45
OK, so you're broken up. He brought you up here than all that should happen, right?

Andrea Londo :   42:50
She was just wanted. He just wanted to encourage me like you can do this. It's not that scary. How did

Brock Goldberg:   42:55
you go from like being super fucking pump to go to college? Didn't get in from a 4.1, which I thought there was only a four point. Oh, so whatever that being said, and then you're just like, fuck it. Did you even, like, decide to go to college? But I know he dropped out. But what was going on between that?

Andrea Londo :   43:15
It's so like So I told you that I moved to allay the first time I did that I lived at, like, on his house. Who? I never knew her until I lived with her. But she was like, on my mom's sides of, like, relatives or whatever. And I lived when I worked at Barnes and Noble. I lived with her, but only for four months. That's when I was like, I can't do this. And I moved back and it wasn't nothing related to her. She's amazing. And I'm so grateful, like anybody that is willing to open either doors, not charge you money and just, like, like, just be like Okay, Yeah, live here. You know it. That is to me, just like first of all such a like, you know, I think I think Mexicans are gonna like that where they'll just, like be like your family. You know what I mean? I love your mom, like, of course, just like crash here for three or four months, but it's hard to, you know, from for many reasons. But when I finally I think I moved back because I was not in that place like you asked me How did you go from that to that? It's like I try to go to that and I was crying and I was over eating and I was like, just you know, and I was lying to my parents because I told them I was going to USC.

Brock Goldberg:   44:28
Oh, shit.

Andrea Londo :   44:29
Because I had the dp to have gone in TOC. So I was like, Yeah, I got into you. See, this way I'm moving to L. A. Because I remember jokingly telling my mom like I want to be an actress and my mom was kind of like, uh your dad is never gonna be okay with you, like moving somewhere to be an actress. And I was like, Well, I got into USC, so Oh, I know. But don't do that like it's so it's so overwhelming. Toh Lai with something so big because it's also people are proud of you for something that you're not and you feel like a fraud and that in of itself is really hard.

Brock Goldberg:   45:03
You always get caught.

Andrea Londo :   45:04
You always Well, I

Brock Goldberg:   45:05
like I've never been conscious until righted myself out.

Andrea Londo :   45:08
Exactly like, No, no, no, no, no. I actually I actually it's funny how my dad found out because there was, like, this, I just doing like, I was impressed. And they did this article on you. My dad sent the article to meet with question marks E o E. I was like, yeah, Dad away. But I was in a place where I felt safe enough to be, like, open about my lie because I was working.

Brock Goldberg:   45:43
I was

Andrea Londo :   45:43
like, Hey, Dad, But I'm working on me, okay? But it's still really like I'm sure he was really sad about it. He was like, You know, I and I can understand it. You know, Everything I've said leading up till now is like how important education was for my parents. And then all of a sudden I lied about going to college. Um, so I I am It's not. I'm not proud of that. I think it sounds bad, as in retrospect, but it's not, You

Brock Goldberg:   46:06
know, you're you're absolutely correct. But in retrospect, right, The happiness that your parents had, right? Yeah, I'm looking it from the other side

Andrea Londo :   46:13
of it

Brock Goldberg:   46:15
worked out. It worked out for you, right? Like at that point, right? What if what if it usually doesn't? That's the thing. But your parents were very happy. And although it didn't work out the way that you said it, did it work out for other things? Um, that's that's That's a few and far between, because it usually doesn't happen that way, but okay, somehow we're gonna dial it back once again. So you're kind of going through all of this. You, you You then move back to Mexico for a little bit of time. A couple of months. And then what did your parents think? At this point, they're like, I'm going back to L. A. You're gonna go to USC again or

Andrea Londo :   46:55
Yeah, they thought the you know, this is what's really funny.

Brock Goldberg:   46:58
I'm going to go to Harvard.

Andrea Londo :   46:59
I almost exactly right. Still areas. Meanwhile, I'm sleeping. I

Brock Goldberg:   47:04
just moved to Boston like rent

Andrea Londo :   47:06
a room or something, You know, um, I told I think it was a weird place in my life because I was considering going to college in Mexico, and my dad was totally against it. Like, just did not want me to do that. And, um, I told him the truth that remember, I was crying and I was like, I'm not even at USC and whatever, and my dad laughed like he didn't believe me like he thought. I was saying that to get out of my excuse for wanting to stay in Mexico. And I was like, Well, lying is hella easy. If you don't even believe me when

Brock Goldberg:   47:39
I'm just flat

Andrea Londo :   47:40
out telling you that I've been lying s o I just felt like, compelled to keep telling ho I which is awful. And then and then when I once once I was actually like in l. A. And I was like, Okay, I have a job. I'm renting this room out for like, 400 bucks. It's cool. It's all chilled. Like I, um I really didn't What wasn't OK with no school overall, okay. And I started going to Santa Monica College, which is so funny. I feel like life has humbled me in so many ways. I was this obnoxious kid who thought was gonna goto like fucking Yale and here I am in l. A going to Santa Monica College, and it took it Took me really like just swallowing my pride of who I thought I was a student. And, um and I'm amazing people at SMC. I had insanely intelligent professors and people that have inspired me, like to this day, I think back to their classes fondly, where I'm just like that class changed my life like that thing that that person said and And they did because, for example, one of my English teachers there I was always. I was a really good writer in, like, normal English like essays, right? And he was like, Have you ever done creative writing? And I was immediately know, like, so scared, right? And he was like, I think you should do it. He's like I teach it And I had already taken like, three of his classes because I always look for his name to take his classes. I really liked his class, and so he was like, I really think you should do creative writing, and then it became my major because I loved it and like things like that would have never happened to me. like to this day. I keep writing, like, in my note, my notes section is like 2000 notes. And it's just like, like, poems that I write occasionally. Like sometime My friends will tease me because it will be somewhere and then all of a sudden, I'm, like, pull out my phone and I'm just like, I type something real quick. And they're like, 00 you got your feelings just now

Brock Goldberg:   49:39
and you know you so well

Andrea Londo :   49:43
again. That's so cool. Yeah, that

Brock Goldberg:   49:45
is so cool. So, um, he's, you know,

Andrea Londo :   49:48
kind of the

Brock Goldberg:   49:48
path that you've gone down like going up to this point wearing were in your story once again has really shaped who you are. Because what would have happened if you would have gotten into that school, right? Where would you be now? I mean, everyone's story is completely different, but, um, through that through that lie right there, taking that chance through your dad, not believing you, um, has kind of once again defined who you are, not the lie because the light isn't define who you are, but it gave you the other opportunity. Right? And so you're at Santa Monica College right now, you're paying $400 a month in rent. Yeah. Um how old were you at this point? Now,

Andrea Londo :   50:33
I I get confused because it took me a year to actually get into Santa Monica College. I think once I was living here, I was kind of like, OK, Ok, OK. And then I was like, No, I'm gonna go to school on DDE, maybe 20.

Brock Goldberg:   50:47
Okay. Young. Yeah, Young. That's so

Andrea Londo :   50:50
But it doesn't seem that way when you're there because you're already, like already people already are, like, halfway through through. And you always like you always sort of get on yourself about the fact that you like you. You didn't do something. I

Brock Goldberg:   51:05
know. I get it. I think that's just life in general, right? We always think we should have done something sooner. Really? Should have done. When does it ever become enough? When now is the right time? Yeah, it's

Andrea Londo :   51:16
never enough until, like you find that place inside yourself that's like your enough. Yeah, regardless of what other people are doing.

Brock Goldberg:   51:22
That's it right there.

Andrea Londo :   51:23
Oh, man. That's a big lesson from you lately where I'm just like it is never gonna be enough. You're never gonna be happy with anything until you're fucking happy with yourself.

Brock Goldberg:   51:32
You know, that's so crazy. Because everyone I've talked to on this podcast, too said the same thing the longest time for me as an individual of never thought I'm enough. I've never thought

Andrea Londo :   51:46
so hard.

Brock Goldberg:   51:47
But we never think other people think that way. Because as human beings, we're all two people, right? The the people that the person on the outside that the people see right, and they have their own views, Um, and then the person that we're on the inside Yeah, and everyone is the same. It doesn't matter what your story is, who you are. We are all the same. But we just have to learn to admit that because we're all human beings, Um, So wow, that's fucking crazy. Just a big realization for me. Sorry, I It's crazy s o that being said, right? You're going through all of this. What was the next step for you? Like you um You're going to call it now? What would What did you want to be before you even like God into acting and did all what you're doing now? like, Did you want to be something different?

Andrea Londo :   52:46
I always thought that I would do either an English major. A psychology major. Okay, Um, and those things still really interest me like, don't get me started on. Like, if there's any documentary on some type of like serial killers something like I always thought I was gonna do like criminal psychology because I just, you know, and not to because I think right now there's like this. There's a lot of concern about how, like, we praise criminals, right, or we give them fame for sure it we d'oh All right, I think I think I just saw it from a standpoint of, like, what drives people to do shit. And I think I'm acting for the same reason is kind of really weird. We're like I every time I read a script or something that really grabs my attention. I'm like, Ah, and it's so interesting because you'll be sitting around a lot of people like, especially once you're on a cast and you're working somewhere and then you hear, like the actor that's playing like the horrible guy he's like, you know? But he just must be like accepted his father and and everybody's talking themselves into why it's okay to say the lines they're saying and like, it's so amazing. It's so cool that, you know, we have this ability to really get into, um, somebody else's shoes in mind. And, um, that's what interested me about psychology to begin with. So I think that sort of that was my interest if I wasn't an actress. But I'm also a person that's generally curious about a lot of things, but I But I always I always always, always in the back of my mind, like thought I this acting thing like, I really want to give that a try. And I I'm not entirely sure why there's not this thing of like I once saw this, and I really it just changed me.

Brock Goldberg:   54:31
And I wanted a small, exacting

Andrea Londo :   54:32
happen. No, never, something like that. I think I just It wasn't so much a cz. Ah, I think I should do that as like this feeling inside me that I was just like, just try it.

Brock Goldberg:   54:43
Just try. And so what was that point where you're like, OK, I'm gonna fucking dry it. Well, failing that solid No, that's it, right?

Andrea Londo :   54:53
Yeah.

Brock Goldberg:   54:54
You know, a lot of times people look at failing as a bad thing, and in the moment it is terrible. Right? But if you ask any of any of the greatest entrepreneurs any of the greatest businessman of all time right t even muster the warm buffets. Right? Um, their failures have defined who they are as individuals because you learn. And, you know, if you are able to learn from your mistakes and glow upon that, then you can have a way different life compared to the people that just kind of sulk and just like, fuck this and give up. Yeah, right. So you took failing right and turned it into something completely different. Um, do you remember that point in your life?

Andrea Londo :   55:43
I just think once it happened to me, I was so angry. And I just felt like I am not a failure like I am not that person like, and I It sounds me to say that like, I'm not the person that fails, but I I I just I just was angry. I was like, No, I am worth so much more than this. Like I will be great, no matter what. Fuck you know, and it is important. But I think you have this, like sense of bravado when you're young, that's like, like comes from no air, like, just like you're in shit down the Oh, but if you didn't have that, then you wouldn't get to the places that you get to as an adult. It's so crazy. And I think that's more or less kind of what went through my mind and I and it's I think there was something about being alone once I moved to allay and living in this lie, and I think I had nobody to confide in. I mean, I lied to my sister, to my brother, to my mom, to my dad. There was on Lee, maybe two people that knew what I was really doing in L. A. So I I didn't have anybody to confide in but myself, and that made me. I think that's both a good thing and a bad thing because it makes you a very guarded person. And I think, you know, in the last couple of years of my life I started going to therapy. Also on this on the reality that I was a very defensive person. I would get so defensive so fast, Like, nobody could say anything to me without me just being like, you know, and I think it came from that insecurity of always being guarded and always, like, living this lie and feeling like I don't even I don't want to say you're not enough. But yeah, that feeling that somebody else in the room is, like, more educated than you and and is doing that thing you didn't do. And and I was so defensive. And I think, um, it came. It came a lot from that.

Brock Goldberg:   57:53
Okay, so you said something that really stands out to me, and I wish more people would talk about it. And you said therapy? Yes, for me. Um, I'm a big believer in therapy. Every human being is going through shit. And people like, Well, why don't you just talk to your friends when you just talk to your family, right? It's so different when you have a person. One that you feel super comfortable with number two that has a biased opinion. Not a non biased opinion. Um, and and and And number three just the fact that I'm wrong about just the fact that you talked about you said it, right? We we live in this culture where, you know, it's like, let's not talk about it. Let's push it away. Right? And I do believe as we move, you know, more and more into the future, more, more people will talk about it. Right? Um, for you, as a human being, What was it that you said? Okay, I'm gonna talk to someone. I'm done kind of being this this person, because I I do understand what you're saying. Um, that being the individual, that just says any type of constructive criticism Fuck that. Fuck that. Fuck that. I was that type of person myself, right? And therapy has allowed me to open up my mind. Say, Wait a minute. I want that because it makes me a better me. Um, for you. What was it? Was there a breaking point? Was there something in your life? What was it?

Andrea Londo :   59:26
There was 100% Operation point fruity. I First of all, I never thought I needed therapy. Quote unquote, you know, because that's a big thing. That's part of the stigma of like Why do you need there? You know, to the I think my parents, it freaks them out a little bit that I go to therapy. Um, because they're a little bit like, Why? What's wrong with you? And I'm just, like, a lot of things. Calm down, human. Exactly. Um, but I think the reason I'm so open about it, um, is because I've been going to 38 3 months now. And yeah, and it's changed my outlook on life. It's changed my outlook on myself. It's changed my outlook on how I go about relationships, and I you know, I read this thing the other day. I wish I could take credit for it, but I can't. It's ah. When awareness meets action, you'll have change. It's so powerful, like awareness of yourself because I think I think it's not. Therapy doesn't change you. It makes you aware of why you do the shit you do. And then when you're aware of why you do what you're like Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait. So why am I gonna answer this text right now? Where is this coming from? What? And why do I need right now? And I think that that is so powerful when you're aware of it? Because then you're like, Well, then then then I'm I'm just feeding into this, like, dark, shadowy part of me that needs validation that needs this. And that's been so powerful for me because I think there's been, You know, you asked me what took you to this place, right? And I'm just gonna get really, really, really candid respect. And I think, you know, I've been in a couple of just bad relationships that have not been bad because, necessarily human being is the worst human being in the planet. But they've just been bad and they not served me. And they've, um, progressively gotten worse. And I think it got so bad in my last relationship as faras things that I really don't want in my life that I I was just like, you know what I think I I I really looked at myself, and I was like, You can blame the people you date as much as you want, but what's the common denominator in every relationship and every guy you've ever dated? And the only person that's the same as you like you are the only person that is the same. You keep dating the same person. And I and I think I got so aggravated at myself that, um I went to therapy. The day I went to therapy was like in June, right of last year. I went and then left was sin a strange space the entire day. And then I got to my apartment and I cried for, like, two hours. And I remember not going back to their baby because it was sort of like, It's kind of like the baby's gonna like going to the doctor, right? In the sense that like, Oh, I'm bleeding, I should go to the doctor. But the difference with therapy is you don't know where you're bleeding from, and sometimes you go to therapy, and all of a sudden you're bleeding even more. And at first you're like, Well, where the fuck is it? Where is the thing? Where do I stop it? Where do I mend it? And you don't know because it takes a while and I think that was my first experience with therapy. I just ran away because she was too real, too fast. And it wasn't until a couple months later that I was like, I really need it and I, um and I started going and I stayed going and I'm still going and and I I just think it's made me very aware. And I think one of the things that's allowed me to do is I think sometimes, you know, it's You said that, you know, we are very much like we don't feel worthy or we feel really low about ourselves because we have that internal self that's different from the one we should of the world. And and I think the thing about therapy is that it's helped me forgive myself about the things that I don't like about myself, and that's been the most. I mean, it's still a journey that I'm on, but it's the most powerful thing I've ever decided to do for myself, and it's hard. It's not like it's not easy. There's a lot of homework that you have to do your cells and and it's just like it's just like you. Sometimes you just wanna be O. K. So you just have to be tired of your own bullshit, and and you said you can't just talk to your parents. You can't just talk. And it's not because sometimes a problem is with your family sends. The problem is with your friend that you fucking love. And as your best friend, Sometimes the problem is with them, like again, my breaking point with people that I dated that I loved very much, you know? And I think the two men I've loved the most, the only two men that I've actually ever conceal A like I really loved those people I was in love are the people that have, like, harmed me the most. But that bothers me, You know what I mean? And I think I think that that's what took me to that point of like Okay, Okay. What is it? Because there's always, you know, there's this woman. Her name is Lacey Phillips, and she says that anything in our life is like a manifestation of what we feel we're worthy of. And it's not immediate to us because a lot of what we do is subconscious shit.

Brock Goldberg:   1:4:58
100%.

Andrea Londo :   1:4:59
It's so true, So, like, you might be in these really bad relationships, and you're like, Why I don't get it like I don't get it and and it's like, Yeah, you don't get it because you don't really know what is inside of yourself to a level of like, you really know who you are at that depth. And once you understand that, then you like. You know what this thing that's been haunting me and hurting me and that I haven't been fully aware of. Now I'm bringing it to light and it's painful. It's so painful, it's it's hard, it's hard. But when you do it, you can let go of it, too, and you can stop letting it control the decisions that you make. So I am so open about therapy because it's a you know, I think it's so good.

Brock Goldberg:   1:5:43
It is, it is. And I appreciate you being so open about it because there isn't a lot of people and, you know, from here, you know, I suffered from manic bipolar disorder, So I'm fucking one day I'll be like here the next they'll be there and within 30 minutes I'll be up and down and I never understood why. I never understood why I was the way that I was. But I always knew that I wasn't personally happy with the person I was. Even if people in the eye sound like God brought you doing so good. Recognize you? No, no. Fuck that. I'm I hate myself, right? And there was a dark moment in my life where I was suicidal and I couldn't face these things head on. And then I got into therapy and I found someone that I could connect with on on a deeper level that this human being allowed me to open up in ways that I never did before. And even on my some of my darkest days where I know that I have there been like, I don't want to go, I don't want to go. But if listen, my wife, she's like, go to fucking therapy! Because as soon as I walk out, I walk in the door, I walk out that door, I feel so much better. E I feel so much better. And I don't know. I come from the thought, the thought belief, if you will, That everyone should have a good therapist because we all go through shit. Yeah, right. And it's the ones that can face it head on. It's the ones that can be like Okay, I'm human being like I thistles who I am and I am flawed because we're all flawed. There's no perfect human being on the face of the planet. I don't give a fuck if you're Elon Musk way. All have exactly. It doesn't exist, right? So

Andrea Londo :   1:7:27
have you also ever like somebody? That's perfect? No, no, that's so like when you date when you date somebody, that's just like where you go on a date with somebody that's just like Q And then it's like, absolutely not stimulating at all because they're trying to be perfect. You're like, This is boring, So we need to stop glorifying perfection.

Brock Goldberg:   1:7:44
Yes, it's it's not, You know it. No, it's it's not, really, Of course there's out liars and sports and business, and not in the other, but psychologically, inside our brain, there is no perfection. There never has been. There never will be right. At the end of the day. That is a fact. So you're talking about it, you being open about it. It brings me comfort. It makes me happy because I'm so open about it. I talk about it, and I just want more people to be open and and talking about it. All right, so now that I said that, right, we're gonna dial it back. One more thing. This was due. This mammals do this. Okay, so you're going through, I'm guessing like you're going through your twenties, right? Um, you're going to Santa Monica College? How long did you go to school? Therefore, and then what was the point in your life where you dropped out?

Andrea Londo :   1:8:42
So it's a m. No. So

Brock Goldberg:   1:8:45
are you, like No bitch. You're wrong. Tell me. Because I have no idea.

Andrea Londo :   1:8:49
Okay, so I was when I started going to Santa Monica College. I

Brock Goldberg:   1:8:55
Sorry. I'm sorry. I don't I don't get it right. Every time

Andrea Londo :   1:8:59
you knew it was I really feel like sometimes I'm just like, No,

Brock Goldberg:   1:9:02
no, no, They shut the fuck up.

Andrea Londo :   1:9:04
No. Wrong. Wrong. Um, I was always acting, and that was always my first thing that I was doing. So before someone in college, I was already auditioning, but at the time being somebody with no experience, I was doing like student films. By the way, when I lived here for four months, I did a music video. So I see. I felt that little thing of like, Oh, shit, I booked this little thing. So I feel like every single time I was in l. A. Even if it was like a mediocre thing, by all means of what anybody else compares to success, I felt like, Well, well, there's I'm like, I feel like I could do this And other people think I could, too, and and, um, I started booking student films, which is still like you audition. It's just the stakes are lower and which is good, I think, like people really put down student films because they don't pay, you know? I mean, like, you get a pizza during, like, they feed you.

Brock Goldberg:   1:10:04
That's how you learn,

Andrea Londo :   1:10:04
though. And you know what? You don't even learn. Like student films are not the set that you're gonna be on if you actually start work force. But you get this sense of like, if you're willing to do shit for free, then you're really willing to do this? Yes. And I think I did about six of those and the last one that I did, I was still Santa Monica College, and it was a very well produced short film because it was a thesis short film. Um, and I've shared this with Pete, like, instagram whatnot before. But I was an undocumented like person, and, like, trying to cross the border, and she's pregnant. And, um,

Brock Goldberg:   1:10:40
that was your role.

Andrea Londo :   1:10:41
That was my role. And we we we would drive to Palmdale at 4 a.m. And this was like a grad would like a bunch of people that were in a thesis class in, like, USC. And I still talk to those people I still like, I still like, They're like, Hey, I'm working on this or whatever. And, like, I just I'm so grateful that I got that opportunity because I that last word film I'm really proud of and it came out really beautifully. And not only that, but I had something to show. So then, from there I got, like, an agent. Then I got an agent and didn't really work out. They would send me to these auditions, and this is all Why USC That mean I come may? Okay, That's right. Commit to my role.

Brock Goldberg:   1:11:31
I met the day.

Andrea Londo :   1:11:31
Yeah, but it's hilarious. It's the one, but, um, but I I was with an agent that I got and I was like, I think I cried when I got my Anjali, but not in an excited way. I was really scared. I was like, Oh, but now there's this person that I have to like perform for, like, you know, And, um, they would send me to these auditions where I would get there and I would be like tall, skinny, blonde girls, and I don't I would always feel like, Yo, I don't belong here like there's no way that I'm gonna I look nothing like these people like and I I mean, maybe that was my own and security, but literally, I did not fit into those rooms, so I they dropped me. But before they dropped me, I already had this sense of like, This isn't right for me. And I started looking for a manager and it's so funny. Any time I tell it, like any working actor, how he got my like manager, they were like, How did I was like I sent a head shot in the mail and somebody called me back. I remember there was a cover letter in there where I was just like, Hi, my name is Andre Alando and I, you know, I'm a student and as some sea. But really, what I want to do is acting and this is my priority. Like I will skip school. I will do this. I will drop out like I like. I wanna be an actor. And I went I got really close with one manager. I went to, like, three meetings. I had a cold, read whatever. And then they decided not to sign me. And I remember being really down like fuck, you know, like whatever. And then maybe three weeks later or two weeks later, this other guy reaches out and he's like, Hey, um, whatever, Do you have any work? And immediately I was excited and I sent him that short film that I had done. And he was like, Hey, do you want to meet? And when I sat down with him, I think I had already been through that other process with that other management that when I sat down with him, was like, Listen like, I want this, I don't want this and like and I was 21 I think 20 at the time, and he was like, Okay, I'm gonna I'll sign you and a lake on the spot. And I was like, No, no meetings, no cold Read. He was like, I'll sign you. And I remember just being like, okay, And and then he was like, I haven't signed anybody in two years, but I want to sign you in. I don't think I fully understood that. That was, like a sign and, you know, or anything like that I was just like, Oh, my God, I have a manager so excited. And he sent me to all the right casting opportunities. And it was just like once, he was my manager. Like, acting wise. Life really changed for me, but it challenged a lot of things. Like at a some CIA, remember? Um, my probably my last semester. This was close. This was so Yeah, this was I was really like I had already booked, like, a couple little things. Tiny things like I was a one night stand on a show like I was like a kn actor recreating an interview on like, catfish on him TV and, like, you know, me like, six. So catfish has everybody ask me that? E can't say catfish with Okay, so I just keep talking to this mask. Okay, I got this. So catfish out a series of untold stories. So it's not happening in real life, So they would have people that would interview them, and then they'd be like, um the hire actors and have the actors recreate the stories. And I was at a point in my life or my career where my Katya, where my manager was, like, you're doing great. But everybody says you're green. You're like, two green. You're like a green actress, like you haven't, You know? I mean, and that was before I had, like, catfish was the first thing I booked, And I remember I went in there and I was gonna read for this other rule, and then they were like, Wait, wait, who did you say you're auditioning for? And I was like, Oh, I can't even remember the names. And then they were like, No, we actually think you're this. And I was like, Okay, but I was so fed up with being told that was green, that I was just like, OK, So what? What is what she liked. You know, I remember they gave me a bath, and they were like, just you know, this girl is in your lawn, and you you're trying to push her away, and you just don't let her get into your house. And I was like, I was hitting that wall with that fat like I was going crazy. And then the day later, my manager was I get you got it. They hired you, and I was just like, I got a job. Like I was so excited. And little by little, I started booking more things.

Brock Goldberg:   1:15:56
Hold the whole lot. The catfish isn't really

Andrea Londo :   1:15:58
know. It is untold stories. So they did a series of people that had been catfishing the past. Okay, so they needed actors to recreate their story. Sorry. Don't break my fucking heart. No, no, everybody, everybody's confused about this, and I'm just like, No, no, no, no.

Brock Goldberg:   1:16:14
Well, just a catfish is fake, right? Continue. Just like now. Maybe so. All right. So what happened next?

Andrea Londo :   1:16:21
Um, well, yeah, just But what I meant was I was at its unseated in sent Terry time, and I remember there was this final project. Do literally, literally three weeks or two weeks before graduating. So it was like final projects, right? And I had to stay and presented and I went to class. I handed it to the teacher and I was like, I can't stay. I have an audition and he was like, If you leave, you're gonna fail and you're gonna go from an aide to a C. And I was just like, I have an audition. Here's the project. He's like, if he's like, it doesn't mean in. And I was like, I'm just gonna leave it here and I'm gonna go. And I think I made several of those decisions. I mean, an audition, nothing's guaranteed. It's an audition. But I was in a place where I just felt like I am gonna do this. And I know that this, like class, is not what I'm gonna do. And, um, I left, But I do remember, like feeling I made a couple of those strong decisions and when you were talking about, like, you know, you were in this place when I was still working at Zara, I got accepted, and I don't know how to pronounce the name of the school. I think it's Barnard or Bernard. It's like it's like a zoo in all girls. Funny enough,

Brock Goldberg:   1:17:37
the knob

Andrea Londo :   1:17:38
And yet whatever. Yeah, college that's affiliated with Columbia. So I felt very much like, Oh, shit like this is the type of school that I've always wanted to go to And it's a very good school And, um, I didn't go. And I remember one time my mom, like, open the door. I was in Mexico at that, like, cause I visit and I was there and my mom opened the door and I was crying, but, like, really crying, Just quit your crying. And I was like, I don't know if I should go to New York and she was like, You could just try it. But they thought I was at USC.

Brock Goldberg:   1:18:07
Yes, they did.

Andrea Londo :   1:18:08
So I knew that me going to New York was me going to New York to do, to go to college for four years. And there was something about it that I was just like, I'm going to stay in L A. Because I think I'm gonna be an actress, which is so scary, like again when I think back to my like decision process in the past. I'm just like it all sounds stupid, but it somehow works, You know?

Brock Goldberg:   1:18:29
It should to you Are you as an individual? I do have a question. Did they fail you in that class?

Andrea Londo :   1:18:35
C? I gotta see.

Brock Goldberg:   1:18:36
So you got to see in that class we talked about college earlier, right? Yeah. Right. And so I'm like I said, I want I'm 50 50 right? Yeah. But you decided to take that interview or that that that you decided to go try out for that role, Which

Andrea Londo :   1:18:53
is kind of like an interview.

Brock Goldberg:   1:18:54
Yeah, I guess it's like it is looking for you, right? I'm how much? I don't know. It just kind of blows my mind that you're going to school. All right? You tell your teacher like, Hey, here's my report. This everything's fucking done. But I have to go do. This is I have to go trial for this role, and you still gotta see, regardless, if you're you got a fucking A plus. Plus plus plus plus project. Yeah. What the fuck? Why? What has

Andrea Londo :   1:19:23
part of the grade was presenting it?

Brock Goldberg:   1:19:25
Okay. All right. I can understand that

Andrea Londo :   1:19:27
Yeah. I mean, from his point. I mean, I respect him, and he told me he was like, I'm gonna give you a C, but I respect what you did. Okay, So So he was a cool teacher. Yeah, but I respect the fact that he also, like, was gonna treat everybody the same. Um, that's a big thing about college is sort of like, no matter what, your excuse is, you get treated equally. So, um I mean, who he doesn't know. I could have been lying and could have done some other shit. Exactly. So it and I don't hold it like against that teacher?

Brock Goldberg:   1:19:54
Not at all. Um, mineral, But, you know, at the end of the day, regardless of where your story ends up, you

Andrea Londo :   1:20:02
know, you

Brock Goldberg:   1:20:02
had 15 20 years down the road. Do you feel that you made the smartest decision?

Andrea Londo :   1:20:08
Well, no, I do, yes,

Brock Goldberg:   1:20:10
but at that moment, you're scared.

Andrea Londo :   1:20:12
It is scary. I mean, the needles in a plastic passed the class because I knew I had a So I was like, Okay, I'm gonna go to a C. Which kind of hurts your ego because you're like, I just don't deserve a see better than this. Yeah, but, um, but I had also over even accepted to U C l A. So So I I had transferred to U C l A. And I didn't end up going to use daily because And it's I'm telling you, like when I say things out loud, it sounds insane. So not mine. Arkels audition was the day of my you silly orientation. So I went to my you silly orientation in the morning. And it was all date lasted until five, but my audition was around, like to 45 or some shit like that. And I told the orientation girl like I'm gonna leave because I have this thing in the middle of

Brock Goldberg:   1:21:00
the have this thing,

Andrea Londo :   1:21:01
this thing. And she was like, If you leave, you missed the entire thing, and I was just like, I'm gonna leave. I'll be right back. And I was back, like I ran back and I had, like, three minutes to book classes for that semester. And I remember, you know, just like I didn't even really think about my Nargles audition. I do remember it went well. Like the casting lady was just like, really excited. Her name is Carla. And she was really like, she seemed really happy after my audition, but I didn't have time to process anything. I was just kind of like, OK, thank you. Bye bye. And I left. And, um, a week later, my manager was like, Hi, what are you doing? And I was like, I'm driving. You're on Bluetooth. And he was just like So the executive producer wants to meet you and that that was the first time in my life that something like that had ever happened to me. And I was like, Is this normal? And he was like, Nope, and I I and I and I went and I remember his name is Eric Newman. And I remember after, like, the meeting, he asked me, like So how would you feel about moving to Colombia? And I was like, Yes, yes, absolutely, absolutely. Like, you're just like, but I didn't get the job right then and there, but it was like it sort of felt like I had the job, and then I still had a call back and all that, but then I got it. I got it. Like I got this fucking show, which I didn't understand what it meant at the time, and I just I got it and and I was just like, Well, it's either the source or school. And I was like, Well, that's a hard choice way.

Brock Goldberg:   1:22:39
Um, um, do you remember telling your parents what you're like? What?

Andrea Londo :   1:22:46
Not go? Yes, I

Brock Goldberg:   1:22:48
didn't know. Still going to USC?

Andrea Londo :   1:22:50
I did. I mean, they was acting, but they just thought it was cute, like, Oh, like you know, this. I think my parents were also a little scared that I would be completely destroyed by not making it as an actress and like not they didn't want me to hope on it too much, which I think sometimes people say that and it sounds very like not encouraging, but no, it's fair. It's a tough business. And, you know, um, you know, I did three movies in 2018 but then I I did. I only did like to TV things in 2019 and a commercial, so it's like it's not, it's it's It's a very volatile type of thing to be attached to, which is also why I agreed to therapy because it's kind of crazy emotionally. What did this to you on your worth And like, your sense of validation of what you get, what you do with your everyday life. But like, I don't know, I just I just It's It's so crazy. Just like the how It just kind of, like

Brock Goldberg:   1:23:50
all happy. Do you feel like it happen all fast? Like Like I mean, at this point. How old are you right

Andrea Londo :   1:23:56
now? I'm 27.

Brock Goldberg:   1:23:57
Okay, you're 27. But when you got the narcos roll hall, agree

Andrea Londo :   1:24:00
23

Brock Goldberg:   1:24:01
23 fucking years. That is so crazy.

Andrea Londo :   1:24:06
Insane. When I say it out loud, I just like

Brock Goldberg:   1:24:08
I don't even want to talk about things I was doing at 23 let alone what you were doing it that's so easy to me. Yeah, And so when you went to Columbia and you did that, did your parents know what vampire did they still think you're on the USC

Andrea Londo :   1:24:22
know they still thought I was going to see

Brock Goldberg:   1:24:24
Whoa. I

Andrea Londo :   1:24:25
thought that I had, like, dropped out or done something of, like, taking some time off over something like that. And I think they were just They were very scared. Um, I think I think my dad I asked like you're going alone. And I was like, Well, yeah, you know what? I'm gonna bring you guys. I, um um I mean, not that they like. They didn't live with me in l. A. But I think it was just the sense of like, oh, my God, my daughter is gonna be an actress along the border with all these people, and, um and it was just but my mentality, you know, I've been nervous every job before in Argos. And I think once I I remember because it wasn't I mean, before narcos, maybe through tooth months before filming, I had done my first, like TV big thing. And, um, I remember that, like, my first real day on set where I was like, I got to act, there was no sense of me being nervous. I was like, I am fucking here Like I was like, I was here, like, you know, like, I was just so excited to be there. And I just felt like I had earned being there, and, um which I don't even know what that means. Really. as an actress. You like you. I think you feel that way in the moment. But once you start you, once you keep going your career, you're like, what does that even mean? I love

Brock Goldberg:   1:25:46
you. You say something and then you say something kind of different. It's like you look at it from the opposite side and no, that's good. Azaz human beings. If we just kind of like this one straight line, Right, Well, some is gonna blow up in the end, but if you can take a step back and look at yourself milk, Okay? Fuck it. I'm human being. I am flawed. I kind of go back to that point every single time. And I don't know for me, I'm at this point in my life now where it's like I'm on this straight straight fucking line. But the end of the day I still look at it from the opposite direction because anything can happen. Anything can happen. And you've had this life that's kind of gone up, up, up, down, up, up, up, down, up, up, down. And and it's

Andrea Londo :   1:26:32
a lot of that.

Brock Goldberg:   1:26:33
No, it's it's seriously is and, you know, for you Now you're at this point, okay? You're you're You're in narcos. You're in Colombia. Um, you're acting. How long was how long were you on set for

Andrea Londo :   1:26:47
back and forth? We would I would travel back and forth. Um, but from October to May So October 2016 to May 2017 I was there, back and forth.

Brock Goldberg:   1:26:57
What did that feel like? He's your first big role, right? This is like fucking it, right? What was that like?

Andrea Londo :   1:27:04
That was the high of my life. Like to this day, I've had other opportunities, but I think there's nothing like your first in anything in life. That's what she said. But

Brock Goldberg:   1:27:22
you're so funny.

Andrea Londo :   1:27:23
But, um, I know it's true. It's too. It's too. It's true. It's like it was. So I think you know, I was in I was originally only gonna be in seven episodes. And then as we went down the line, they called us or my thine eyes. That's when I meet me and my manager sounds so officially, call this, But they were like, did she want to be in all 10 and yeah, yeah, yeah. So I was on all 10 and then I did. That made me stay there longer. And you know what is so crazy? I I love that role. I did, I did. But, you know, part of it was I met such incredible people there. I made such amazing friends. And I, um, had this, like, new understanding of life. And what, Being an actress, Woz, and no experience has matched it. Um, I've had other extremely fulfilling opportunities and experiences that have been maybe deeper as an actress because I've done lead roles now. So it's like That's a completely different ball game. And I'm so grateful for that, and that has completely changed me. But as faras the experience, I mean, you know, you're talking about highs and lows. While I was working on our coast, I booked another show called Maya NHS, which is like on air right now. And I was gonna be a lead on that too. Not a lead lead, but, you know, a main main character. And it was a huge deal because people were like, this girl is blowing up like, Oh my God! And like they it's it was kind of surreal. And then I don't really want to, like, get into details of that because it's such a long story. But, you know, I first I almost got that role. And then I didn't get that role. And then I almost got that role again. And then I didn't get that role. And then I didn't get that role. And then I went to a table read, and then I did a costume fitting. And then I took pictures. And then I did interviews. And then I did all these things. And then three days before filming the actual pilot, I lose it like I don't They change the schedule. It doesn't work out. I'm in Colombia. I can't be in l. A at the same time. And it's just like this extremely devastating thing where I was like, Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God. And I kind of shut myself out from the world in Colombia for like three days. And then on the third day God, no, no, by, um, our photo, who's a friend of mine was just like, Okay, you're not gonna be sad anymore. No, we're going to dinner. We're gonna go have drinks. We're gonna go have fun. And then Matt was who's another good friend of mine got off set and joined us, and we just got super drunk and just like but see, that's what I mean. I met people that really were like, You're gonna be okay. And I think, for example, like a total has always been that person. Like he inspires me so much. He works all the time. He's like such a go getter person. He's so positive. And I think any time I'm down on myself is always like, you're gonna be okay. He's like, if I believe in anybody I believe in you like you're gonna be fine. And I made those type of friendships in those type of relationships with people on that set. And so I am grateful for nickels on a different level than just like it wasn't our ghosts because I wasn't expecting what happened to me. I was, Yeah, okay, Every episode. But Maria is not the main character by any means. And I think before it came out, I had this moment of panic and I and I was talking to my manager and I was like, Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Like I was like, I'm not. I was like, uh, this is a lot of people watch this show like I just really saw people watch the show like and he was just like, It's okay. It's about the guys. It's not about you you're gonna tell will be fine. And then it comes out, and then it's just like my fuckin life changes and explodes in a way that I like. I, you know, not in, like, a crazy way, but in a way that was crazy for me because I was not expecting that. I was not aware that that was gonna happen to me. I I don't know. It just was like we had a bet going on in my family. They were like, we're think you're gonna have, like, 10,000 followers, you know, like it was way. We're just like we were like we thought it was like, you like that, That would even it would even reach that. You know what I mean? And and it's not about a followers thing, but it's just about the amount of reach.

Brock Goldberg:   1:31:42
No, it is,

Andrea Londo :   1:31:42
You know,

Brock Goldberg:   1:31:43
in today's standards. I mean, it is, but it's not. But I understand

Andrea Londo :   1:31:47
that it's crazy because I think what happened. Waas. There's this culture now right about like, how popular are you or like whatever. But I think at the time it really made me aware of like, anytime I saw growth on my Internet profile, I was just sort of like people googled me or searched me or all these people searched and then hit. Follow like that blows my mind because those were real human beings. Those are real people. And I think that was what was crazy about it to me study because it became less about a number and more so about, like, people should know. We're like it was It was It was very, um, it was very it was It was very strange.

Brock Goldberg:   1:32:34
So it's also a humbling experience. Yeah, from you. It's like these individual people went out of their time to do whatever the fuck they're doing to look you up. It's

Andrea Londo :   1:32:45
gonna be amazing experience. You see, it's insane and it's also like I think very soon afterwards comes a lot of weird bullshit or surrounding that right, and I and I Ah, lot. I remember one person in my life trying to be like in front of other people was trying to be very like, you know, has it changed you or some bullshit? I'm just like, first of all, not really famous. Some Internet attention doesn't mean you're famous like, first of all, and second of all yeah, it has. And I think people are like, Oh, so bad. And I'm like, No, because I think people. So you become very hyper aware of, like, who am I Who do I want to be? Like, Who? Who? And I think I've struggled with that throughout, like having more attention online. It's definitely been a struggle. Were like, I feel like, right now I'm sort of finally being like you do what you do and you be unapologetic about it because it's so easy to be scared of getting attacked, and I and I and I'm right now I'm just kind of like, No, you be that girl you were when you had 1000 or 100 or 500 followers. If you don't care, you know, and it's hard it takes. Takes a little journey

Brock Goldberg:   1:33:57
for for me. You know over the past. Ah, couple weeks now, I knew that today was gonna be a big day for me because I was releasing five podcast to the world. And not only are they about the individual story, but for me, I'm opening up a lot about myself. Right. Um, I didn't expect myself to

Andrea Londo :   1:34:18
be opening that well,

Brock Goldberg:   1:34:20
but I appreciate it. I appreciate it on, But whenever you put your heart and soul into something and then you share with the world, it's a scary feeling. It's a scary feeling because the world can eat you up alive. They can be happy. They can be appreciative. It can be 50 50. You don't ever fucking know. Um, but at the end of the day, you have to be proud of yourself that you did put your heart and soul into it, That you did have the opportunity to work on a project like this and that you are at this level, you know, because most people doesn't matter. Um um who you are as an actor and actress. Toe put your time and effort and something Most people will never see anything. And you have been able to make it to this point. So you have to be proud of who you are and everything that you have done. And I respect the shit out of you. Nothing. No, seriously, Because not only are you you're a good actress, but you are intelligent as fuck.

Andrea Londo :   1:35:23
I think anybody that you

Brock Goldberg:   1:35:28
know, But it's it's the truth, right? And your analytical of yourself, because most people are I'm sorry. Like, and I know that I'm gonna get a lot of hate from some of the things that I say. But we have to be analytical of oneself. You have to be able to take yourself out of the equation and look at yourself from the outside. Yeah, because when we can do that, well, things become a lot different, and it does. For me, it stems back to therapy, you know, And for you, maybe the same thing. And I think so. Um, so now, uh, we're gonna bring it back once again. Um, you're at this point. You wrapped up, not ghosts. Um, narcos is about to premiere. Did you realize how big narcos was?

Andrea Londo :   1:36:15
It's complicated because Yeah, I was like, netflix show. Yeah, I heard about it. I heard people are fans, but I I don't think it really settled on me that it was this big thing that, like Netflix, is one of the shows it's known for. So and especially when it came out, because right now there's other good shit and and at the time there was two. But it was a big show.

Brock Goldberg:   1:36:39
Was huge river Netflix because there wasn't like, it's what drew me into Netflix

Andrea Londo :   1:36:46
When I see when I say these things out No, I did not understand.

Brock Goldberg:   1:36:49
No, I I

Andrea Londo :   1:36:50
don't think I really understood. I did not like I knew was a big deal. But I didn't understand, Like what it really meant for me, what it really like. And I and I was and it was everything was kind of surreal. But I at the same time, I want to do say this because I think, you know, we're talking about years and years of my ice, and I'm talking about a lot of highs, right. And I've recently come to recently come to realise that, um, hi sound great. And they are. But I've had really bad lows, and I think every time I get off set. So, you know, you were like, how's it? So you get off on our girls, and then it comes out yet coming out. It was great. But that period between narcos shit, like shutting down and in it coming out was really hard for me. You know, I was on this high of my life and then all of a sudden I'm home. I'm in my apartment. And what next? And I don't have this other job that I thought I had a crazy in, like it was just, um I have, you know, last year was the hardest year I've had in a really long time, and I think what it waas was like. You can't seek validation from anything, even your job, even if it's given you this immense high. Even if it's and that's really hard, I think acting wise, you're a freelancer. And that lifestyle is so hard. And I know you can really do it because you've done freelance stuff to Exactly, and it's in. It's really hard to do this like Oh my God, this amazing thing and it's like you're doing so well and then all of a sudden you're not for this long period of time and you know, and I think I'm always really hyper aware of, like how false it is to seem like you're always on top. It's like I'm not. I'm no and and I I have to come to terms with that myself. But I think it's important to say that because I think people I really do think that like, Oh my God, this girl not goes this that and I'm talking about all these things and it sounds like so many winds. But you have to remember that in those winds there's the's really low points of, like, feeling really sad. I'm feeling really lost and I'm using my hands a lot.

Brock Goldberg:   1:39:18
No, but you know, life is an instagram, right? It's on instagram picture, right? Because we've become an EEG our feet. What? Right. But we've become a society to think that everything that we see on instagram the people that we follow that's like taking this perfect picture. We don't ever think about what happened before what happened after you could have been a huge fight with someone right before you're fucking someone could've passed away right after. And this one picture looks amazing, right? Life isn't like that. Life is a rollercoaster. Goes up and down, up and down, up and down for you. Right? Um, being a what? I say a Mexican American, American, Mexican, I think it's Mexican American. Whatever. Like that, they fuck labels. Yeah, you got it. You are a human being, right?

Andrea Londo :   1:40:07
That's that's what

Brock Goldberg:   1:40:08
you're fucking are. We all are. And this is back to my story. That your story, Ladies and gentlemen, what is it like being, ah, Hispanic woman trying to make it in acting, right? I mean, do you get typecast it a lot? Like, how does that fucking happen? How does that work?

Andrea Londo :   1:40:29
Ah, such a good question. And you know what? Today is a good question. I start because So I have this really interesting thing that I'm going to say that I and I think it's interesting because I've seen it being interesting on other people when they talk about it. Not because, you know, but I think I first again, life humbles you in mine has to me in so many ways that I never thought it would, and I think I came to this, you know, one of the first things that I said to my manager in that meeting was like, I don't want to do Telemundo because I knew what the limo Nawas, which was like the Mexican Channel, or like the Latino Channel, where you can just act like a Latino and then you don't really get integrated and what is really pop culture or mass culture, or like what is really going on stories that are really being told. So I didn't want that. I wanted to be a part of the conversation, basically. And I think that also stems from this idea that you see yourself as that person or that girl that can be in the room come. That can be the lead in that show that can. I think I can do that. I mean, when I was growing up, I loved Lizzie McGuire. Do I look anything like this is a choir watching? Yeah, I know. It's amazing. I can't wait for her new thing. Where 30 30 I'm like I can't wait, but exactly, But but But I remember growing up and like it was so special to me when Lizzie McGuire was on show on TV and this is a blonde girl that I like American that was truly American, not Mexican American, that I was just like, I want to be like her. And that really was in my mind when I was starting to be an actress, like I wanted to be that actress. I wanted to be the blonde American actress. You know what I mean? And and I think the opportunities that I offered are not that. And I have. I'm really proud of what is coming this year because I did two movies where I'm Latina, of course, because I am. That's effect. But the stories have nothing to do with me in that respect. They're just a girl and you know it. And it's funny because I started the year with, like, this immigrant like undocumented immigrant role where, like everybody can hate on and be like and and like, what's next? It's so exciting to me because it's real, just really. People just humans, like you said just humans, and it's people that are aware that, like they want to do that like Adam was. Adam still well, is the director of this horror movie that I did and He told me He's like I specifically wanted people of two different races in the rule, like I specifically wanted that. And he's like, because that is America now and people need to get a grip. And I was just so thankful that he chose me, You know what I mean? And that I was that girl that had the opportunity to do that. But at the same time, I'm like, Well, now a lot of us might have the opportunity to do that. But it's a journey. And I think I'm at an awesome point in having become an actress or in this world or in this, like Hollywood, whatever, where people are like, Hey, tell my story until it right? Yes, and and I'm and I'm there right now. And so, like being a Latina is interesting because I do fight for that opportunity to be like the blonde girl and just tell a story. But I also fight now that I have been humbled enough also to do roles that are nothing like me and people that are not like me and have not had the privilege that I have had in other aspects of my life. I've also been those people in roles, and I'm also grateful because that story is also valid. You know what I mean? It's like Maria is a total stereotype of narco. She's like the other woman. She's like this trophy wife. She's, you know, and the way her story was told was like just Pierre a little bit into her life, what she feels, what she went through. So I think it's also when it comes to any story, but also Latinos is you can tell the same story you've been telling over and over and over again. Just finally tell it from my perspective. Absolutely. That's absolutely That's it. It's like, Don't stop. Don't stop telling the immigrant story. Just tell it from my point. Next. You know what I mean? And just like that is the real change. That is truly what I'm excited for is a Latina. Is that opportunity to be like okay? Yeah. Give me the Latina role. I'm fine. But do it right. Absolutely. Don't do it. You know, as the sidekick?

Brock Goldberg:   1:45:03
Yes. As the stereotypical bullshit that's been told forever, right? Yeah, because at the end of the day, times are changing. She isn't how it Waas and we are all human beings. And you know what? I was thinking back as you were talking, right? Um, you know, I said Mexican American. No. Fuck that. Are you who gives a shit, right? Who cares? Like Mexican American, American, Mexican? What the fuck? Like, we have to stop thinking of these stereotypes and these just one sided of views. And I find myself sometimes getting stuck in those right and I'm the farthest of anything, you know, one sided for sure, But still, my mind can lead that way sometimes. And so, um, you know, just really hearing your story. Everything that you have been through is a human being. The ups, the downs. I just really appreciate you coming on here.

Andrea Londo :   1:45:56
You

Brock Goldberg:   1:45:56
mean 110% honest? Your parents know that you're still not going to USC, right?

Andrea Londo :   1:46:01
Yeah. You

Brock Goldberg:   1:46:02
know, you said that earlier, but seriously,

Andrea Londo :   1:46:06
I know now

Brock Goldberg:   1:46:07
they do know. Now, gentlemen, do you hear that? Looking back at your life, right? Are you happy with everything that you have become A this point?

Andrea Londo :   1:46:19
Not everything. Respect, respect. Um, there's a lot of things that I didn't say on this podcast that I won't say on the spot gas that are that are things that are hard for me, um, that I struggle with so much. But But I think I lose sight of, you know, every now and then or just sitting here right now. I'm telling you all of this, I'm like, Jesus, Give yourself a break. You doing fine. And I get so in my head and and I think more so now because I think now there's, like, a little bit more pressure. And, um, I I want to say I think mostly what I want to say is, um at some point is fully be like, I am happy with everything that I can like, give myself, you know, and not and not get from a job or another person because I think that's the only way that I'm going to be happy. And so there is a lot of things that I'm happy that I've done. Um, but I'm not at a point yet where I'm just like, ah, 100% happy with everything Andrea is No,

Brock Goldberg:   1:47:32
no, working on it is a human right, because if you said yes, right it would be like it would be a bullshit lie because every human I don't give a fuck of your Brad Pitt. Yeah, If you look back in your life, you're 100% happy with everything that you've done. Of course not. Right? Because we are human beings and you'll be able to recognize that makes you a better human being. I'm sorry. Like I really, really, really, really does. You know, I really wish you nothing but, um one happiness and success because ah, you are hardworking, individual, right? You're analytical of oneself. You are brilliant as fuck. That's one thing I learned about, You know, like I did, You know, the first time that you we got into a pretty good conversation way. Got a pretty good conversation right on. And I love that right. That's what I love doing this because I love getting into in depth intellectual conversations, but I totally realized how smart you are on this podcast. You're definitely smarter than me. Uh, no, no, listen, listen, listen. Listen. I am the type of person that I like to surround myself with, people that are smarter than me, and I know that I can realize that because it makes me makes me a smarter individual. Um, if you're the smartest person in the room and you certainly wrong, you're in the

Andrea Londo :   1:48:56
high five motherfucker right there. Boom. That's what I always

Brock Goldberg:   1:49:00
say. I love that I'm respect to you and your family and everything that you have been through and coming on this podcast. Thank you from the bomb. My art. Appreciate the fuck out of you. And, uh, we'll check in soon.

Andrea Londo :   1:49:14
Thank you. I am honored to be on this podcast, and ever since I met you and you told me you're like, I didn't think you'd want to do that Since I met you, I knew that this was gonna be an awesome conversation. So it's my pleasure to be here. Thank you for having me course. And I'm really excited to go listen to all of these

Brock Goldberg:   1:49:34
party as I'm really excited to listen to myself. Yeah, I'm doing just for myself. Yeah. Thank you for listening to back to a story. Have a good night, Mother.